Why ...

I was praying
for feelings which can't feel you
for senses which can't sense you
for a world where you no more exist

and today I got all this
still feeling strange... restless ...
my feelings left me
and my senses stopped working
every breathe is asking about you
and I have no answer, just wondering

why a part of my heart
still wants to hear your smile
still wants to feel your voice
still wants you back, to hurt me atleast ....